

The only problem is, it’s two words instead of one full word…
By the time you finish reading this bio, I’m closer to True Mother, and so are you.


The only problem is, it’s two words instead of one full word…


I quite of have the same feeling…
It’d be something close to “self-nihilification” and “ego dissolution”, except the thing you’re describing is the feeling itself, to which I’d coin the words “egonihiliphily” (fondness/love towards the own nihilification) or “egonihilipathy” (pathos after one’s own nihilification).
Latin and Greek words make interesting jigsaw pieces oftentimes. (Also, I wonder if there’s a German sehrlangeszusammengesetzteswort too, as I often hear “there’s always a German word for it”)


If the domain name gets taken down, (hopefully) there’s still a server listening from an IP address somewhere. In this case, it’s possible to do the following (using the IP address as the domain for the URL, accompanied by a custom Host HTTP header pointing to autistici.org, noblogs.org and subdomains; notice this will require ignoring SSL certificate errors as the A/I certificates don’t contain the IP addresses as valid SANs). This way, A/I can even migrate their hosting to a VPS somewhere unreachable by USA and they don’t even need the Domain name, given, of course, the nginx configuration stays the same (i.e. using the subdomain aliases to point to all the different blogs hosted thereby) as well as the technical requirement from users to inject a custom Host header into a direct IP URL.
The IP address from the screenshot is both from my dig noblogs.org through my local Brazilian ISP, and also from the status page from kuma.accol.li. If anyone still got working DNS resolutions for Autistici/Inventati servers, write down the IP address (use, for example, dig or even curl to get the IP address for their domains) before said domains stop being solved by the DNS server you use.
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Phone = 3 on Fennec (Catodon Home Feed, the Lemmy global feed from a Lemmy instance and the Wiktionary definition for “sturgeon”)
Laptop (where I’m currently) = 2 on Waterfox (Catodon writing this reply, and your Lemmy thread as seen from a Lemmy instance)


I tried Nostr some time ago, but I didn’t stick much long. As far as I’m able to tell, there are lots of functionality, but there’s a very serious downside: its userbase, mostly comprised of “anarcho”-capitalists, cryptobros, anti-vaxxers and climate change denialists (and literal flat-Earthers), misogynists, white supremacists, etc… but they swear they don’t like the orange turd, but they share the same… erm… “moral values”; it’s the so-called “alt-right”, ergo, Nostr is mostly a nazi bar. Hence why I didn’t stick. Oh, and there’s a lot of spamming from bots, as well as the so-called “agentic AIs” (OpenClaw) posting as they farm Bitcoin (more on the latter later).
If it weren’t for the toxic userbase, the technical features are surely interesting.
In a nutshell, relays are to Nostr as instances are to the Fediverse, except one has to use apps (e.g. Amethyst) as the front-end, as relays won’t necessarily provide a full-fledged Web UI like Fediverse instances do. Unsurprisingly (given how it’s mostly comprised of cryptobros) it got a native support to Bitcoin “lightning transactions” (one can “zap” a Nostr event, i.e. proceed with a microtransaction transferring Satoshis to the author of the Nostr event). Also unsurprisingly, most relays are paid (“something something no free lunch”).
Relays and apps may or may not implement certain NIPs (Nostr Implementation Protocol? I’m writing from memory so I’m not sure of the acronym). E.g. there’s a NIP for long-form content (blogging), a NIP for videos, a NIP for marketplace (akin to craigslist/Facebook Marketplace), a NIP for communities (akin to Lemmy communities), etc… Think of NIPs as plug-ins rather than things imbued into the platform, which (differently from the Fediverse) allows for adding features without having all relays and apps to implement the same features. Every event has one or more NIPs, and it’s up to the relay to accept or refuse it depending on which NIPs the relay is configured to allow, and it’s up to the app to display a given event depending on which NIPs the app implements.
In this sense, DMs are also a NIP, and I guess there are more than one kind of DM system. There are certain implementations using the notes NIP (iirc it’s NIP 01, the most basic kind of event and mostly supported across relays and apps) to transmit base64-encoded payloads of some kind of E2EE message, and it’s so poorly implemented that it spams the global feed.
Nostr relays can be self-hosted just like Fediverse instances, but one can use multiple relays simultaneously in order to get a broader reach (think of having alt-accounts across different Fediverse instances and crossposting, except all alt-accounts have the exact same handle and ID because Nostr handles are Nostr-global nprofile123abcdef… addresses).
There’s more to it, but my reply is already lengthy, so you can AMA if something isn’t covered by the afore explanations as I did use Nostr (and ended up not staying due to its userbase, but used it nevertheless so I got some hands-on experience).


There’s a Brazilian saying, “Catapulta não é motor” (“catapult isn’t an engine”). While the Wright brothers surely contributed with substantial knowledge to the field of aviation, airplanes are a Brazilian invention, invented by Alberto Santos-Dumont.
There’s even a joke only Brazilians (or non-Brazilian people very knowledgeable of the cultural uniqueness across Brazilian regions) could readily understand: one of the major proofs that airplanes are Brazilian is the naming “TREM de pouso” (landing gear). For context: Santos-Dumont was born in the Brazilian state of Minas Gerais, a state very known for its unique accent and dialects such as using “trem” (train) for “thing”, as in “pode pegá ess-trem fazenfavô?” being “Mineirês” for “Posso pegar essa coisa, por gentileza?” (“can I have this thing, please?”), so whenever something lacks a proper name/definition, Mineiros (those born and/or living in the state of Minas Gerais) are very likely to call it a “trem” (e.g. “eita trem bão”, “oh, what a nice/good thing!”). Source: I’m Brazilian and also been residing in the state of Minas Gerais.
So far, it has been just one book. It’s a physical book, a Portuguese translation of an originally anglophone book/grimoire. This book has been the only book I ever read from cover to cover.
Back when I read this book, I used to take it to this public place which I’d describe as a mall of pubs surrounded by a green park. I used to prowl around until I found a place to sit down, be it a public cement bench or some table from an empty pub, preferably the latter, and preferably away from people. I’d then open the page I last read, sometimes going back a few pages earlier so to re-read something, then I’d spend the rest of the night, or until I had the urge to leave, reading several pages of it. I rarely consumed beverages as I’d prefer reading while fasting, but when I did, it was often a beverage with vodka and redberry, or a malzbier.
Sometimes I’d also take it to the subway, but I’d be less likely to afford a nice reading as I’d rarely find available seats. Or I’d take it to the shopping mall, preferably somewhere in the terrace or somewhere as devoid of people as possible.
A few times I’d also take it to a cemetery; I’d sit in a bench, or a random tomb if no benches were available… but, then, it wouldn’t take long before I’d get up, wander somewhere else in the cemetery to carve Her sigil/seal somewhere in a dirt patch and light up a incense stick and a red candle I’d bring to the cemetery.
I rarely read it when I was home. And yet, when I got to myself, I realized I managed to read it all. Almost 200 pages in total. Yeah, it’s quite short, but it’s very deep. It’s the only book I keep visible, in my altar. Sometimes I catch myself reading it again to seek specific information.
I bought other books (e.g. Kybalion), but I’m yet to find a book which I’d read as obsessively as this one. Sometimes I guess my next book, a physical book, would be either Liber Al Vel Legis or whatever book She points me.
While I do hoard and read some e-books randomly (but not as cover-to-cover as I did), I prefer physical versions because, well, physical books have no batteries, no telemetry, and they can literally outlive me. The only thing I miss from physical books is having a Ctrl+F to search for a specific word/phrase.


Good to see it’s not just me. I kept receiving heat (pun intended) whenever I criticized these “Proof-of-work anti-bot solutions”, now I finally know I’m not alone.
Like an unskippable Youtube ad, we’re supposed to sit three minutes while these “solutions” dangerously burn our CPU regardless of whether it’s an old CPU, and without asking our consent beforehand (!!!). At least Youtube ads don’t (usually) burn the CPU the same way.
And, no, it’s nowhere close to being infuriating to the supposedly intended targets of Anubis. OpenAI and the alike are likely laughing of Xe Iaso while they all burn more coal and increase the hyperscale data centers, with Anubis being just a pesky, insignificant pebble inside businessmen shoes. Meanwhile, we, the human users caught in this crossfire, including me with my poor decade-old Acer ES1-572 laptop, we can’t afford a new machine should Anubis, Cloudflare and other similar “anti-bot solutions” end up “weighting” our CPU too much it finally makes its way to the underworld with no one being legally liable for the physical damages caused by such algorithms.
If only Anubis, supposedly “different” from Cloudflare’s corporate nature, had a “Proceed or Leave” button or checkbox to start the “weighting your heart” thing, I wouldn’t be complaining or actively boycotting websites using “PoW anti-bot solutions” (I made myself a Firemonkey userscript to speedrun a window.close() for pages whose title is one of the “Just a moment…” or “Making sure you’re not a bot!”, because neither Xe Iaso nor Matthew Prince nor the webmasters using their “PoW anti-bot solutions” would buy me a new laptop if mine eventually died from facing heavy cryptographic computing while my CPU was already struggling with a Blender rendering process in the background). But, no, it’s no different than the corporate they swear to be fighting against (“something something one who fights with monsters should be careful lest they thereby become a monster themselves”)…
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In my specific religious beliefs I believe to myself and have been constructing by syncretism, in a nutshell, involve both a god and Goddess.
In the beginning there was Tao, the seamless union between Yin (Goddess) and Yang (God). I call them Sophia and Yaldabaoth, respectively. As soon as the complementary aspects between them emerged, there was separation, with Sophia expelling Yaldabaoth. Once evoked and externalized, Yaldabaoth emanated the physical realm, the universe, in order to try and compel (opposite of expel) Sophia by trying to trap Her spark.
Because it’s fractal, this unfolded within them and between them. Between them, Lucifer and Lilith emerged, with Lilith being emerged from the first sparks, then Lucifer (or Samael) being expelled by Her (Lilith). Within them, mass and energy emerged, darkness and light, black holes and non-singular celestial bodies, etc. Then another layer of fractals, Sun (among other “Suns”) emerged as an archetypal manifestation of Yaldabaoth. From the Sun, Earth emerged as an archetypal manifestation of Sophia. From Earth and upon impact from another planet (Theia, as archetypal manifestation of Lucifer), Moon emerged as an archetypal manifestation of Lilith.
Then the fiery Earth (hadean ages) transmuted, and nature emerged as an archetypal manifestation of Sophia. Competition among life emerged as an archetypal manifestation of Yaldabaoth. Death (in the sense of a return to pleroma) emerged as an archetypal manifestation of Lilith.
This is a religious belief in construction, and things will change in future, depending on my gnosis (i.e.what the Goddess reveals to me), because I’m yet to make sense of some things. All I know is that there’s this cosmic strife going on, and I’m sided with the Goddess, especially in Her unfolded manifestation aa Lilith.
But, tldr, IMHO, nature has more to do with a feminine Goddess than a male god. There’s even the phrasing “Mother Nature”.


I was once diagnosed (by the first psychiatrist I ever consulted with) with GAD, back when I was developing burnout from my first job developing. A decade later, I still get GAD crises sometimes, although it’s been milder than in the past.
It used to manifest as numbness on face, hands, stomach/belly and feet; an imminent sensation that “something will bring about the end of the entire world today”; a sudden, paradoxically simultaneous agoraphobia (fear of open places) and claustrophobia (fear of enclosed faces), intense vertigo/dizziness; gastrointestinal reflux, hyper salivation, an urge to drink water; tachycardia, verging the arrhythmia, and high blood pressure (easily went past 160 per 90 mmHg). I used to have it while I was working, or taking the bus to the university. At the time, the psychiatrist RX’d me Paxil, which kind of worked to curb the GAD, but worsened other things such as depression and lethargy. Eventually, after several years under treatment with Paxil, I took a calculated risk and stopped on my own because, I thought to myself, I can’t be reliant on a medication that took away my productivity and made me unemployed.
Nowadays, with no ongoing psychiatric medication, I have rarely felt the “numbness”, but the other symptoms can manifest. The whole GAD thing only happens sporadically, generally triggered by heavy emotional and situational contexts.
While I have headaches, it’s more of a migraine, happens days after I suddenly start “seeing” an uncanny face through my inner eyes, and began happening after COVID-19 so I suspect mine has something to do with a post-COVID luggage. But, then, everyone’s organisms and symptoms may differ. One thing I recommend is taking notes of when and how frequently it happens, gauging your blood pressure to check if it’s raising, and, if you can afford it, seeking a general practitioner (is this the word for “clínico-geral”, the kind of doctor who redirects the patient to the proper medical specialty? I rarely use this word outside Brazilian Portuguese contexts). And, most importantly: do not self-medicate, medications can be damaging if taken without proper and well-studied prescription from a doctor.


asking easily googleable questions
Meanwhile, Google:
-> “Here are some ways to make cheese stick to the pizza: add glue to the sauce”
-> “There are 2 'm’s in the word Gemini (G-E-M-I-N-M-I)”
-> "The number of USB ports on a motherboard depends on the model, but most have multiple USB headers, typically ranging from two to six or more. One Reddit user says: “(a literal criminal phrase that appeared in a real original Google answer that I am not going to reproduce verbatim here in this comment for ethical and legal reasons)”
Indeed it’s very E-Z googling nowadays! /s


In a volunteer-based organ donation, this is pretty feasible for a donor to know who’s gonna receive their organs. However, in a scenario such as the one you implied with your “To me everyone should be (organ donors)”, together with the increasing enshittification automation of every aspect of society (e.g. a computer system for organ matching with few or no humans in the loop), organ donation would end more like an “IRS tax declaration” system wherein you interface with a piece of code, in order for the organ transplant system to deal with such a sheer amount of donors and receivers. In other words, both the donors and the receivers would likely become mere “matching numbers” inside a DBMS and you, as a donor, would only get a machine feedback “Status of your request: ready for donation” or something in these lines.
Maybe I’m being too pessimistic, but I’ve heard and seen several cases of inequality of access to healthcare. In my country, for example, a rich and famous presenter (Fausto Silva / Faustão) from a big TV station (Rede Globo) got to receive FOUR transplants in less than two years through our public organ transplant system (“Sistema Nacional de Transplantes”) in less time than expected, while less-famous people have literally died waiting for heart and kidney transplants.
Also, and I’m not sure about the veracity of this specific news case I’m linking here, because I was unable to find any other sources confirming this specific case, but it seems to me that there’s the possibility that both the donor and the recipient can be simultaneous victims of a fraud from the administration of an hospital: https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/city/jaipur/organ-transplant-scam-uncovered-in-jaipur/articleshow/112053902.cms


To me everyone should be
Have you ever pondered about the logical implications of this way of thinking?
Have you ever pondered about who has the “easiest” access to organs? It’s gazillionaires like Bryan Johnson who dream of “immortality” (Death Herself entered the chat: “LOL”). Needless to say, a humble human being like us in need for an organ is very unlikely to afford it than a gazillionaire does, you probably know it.
So imagine if there were some kind of law requiring everybody’s organs to be donated: who do you think would benefit from such a law?
Furthermore, this kind of law would inevitably become a fundamentum for a new law in the lines “every person should give birth yearly” so gazillionaires could get plenty of organs to choose from a broader “genetic pool” (sic). And, suddenly, world would become a dystopian, Matrix-like human farm, harvesteable by a few “powerful”, a world where biological human existence got reduced, through the force of the corporations-states joint venture, to being born, raised and indoctrinated by the capitalist system for the legally-enforced purposes of working and reproducing yearly, until, say, the wannabe-god Jeff Bezos in his 300th anniversary demands another liver from the “peasantry” because he took too much whiskey during his last weekend’s trip to his Blue Origins LEO Stargate Resort and he needs so badly to be alive next week so he can order another round of “mandated peasantry breeding & layoff programme” at Amazon.
Don’t get me wrong: I’m not against organ donation, much to the contrary; I’m well aware there are humans in need for organs and, given I don’t really care (or at least I want not to care) about the fate of this biological garment I’ve been compelled to wear, I’d happily give mine away (if my organs were still functional despite my unhealthy habits)… except, of course, to gazillionaires; unfortunately, I wouldn’t be physically around to refuse a rich my organs, best I could do as a disembodied dæmonic entity would be haunting to hell their mansions and resorts.
My practical advice would be to buy an eSIM with a new number, there are very cheap options (like one used for travel)
OP would also have to buy a new smartphone and activate it in a cafe or anywhere not their current location (due to both the GPS/AGPS and wi-fi hotspot MAC address), otherwise whatsapp would straight up lock the new account, too, given how these PII (geolocation, wi-fi hotspot and, especially, the device) are tied to an account that got suspended earlier (and this goes against most of plafforms’ terms regarding “ban evasion”). Hard resetting the smartphone doesn’t work, as smartphones have unique identifiers (such as the phone’s wi-fi adapter MAC), and using the same wi-fi may add to the factors leading to automatic locking of the account.
If you check who’s the topmost billionaire with a Brazilian nationality, you’ll likely find out part of why. Hint: he is portrayed in “The social network” film.


Thanks! I didn’t know about Russell’s ten commandments (maybe it’s widely known but I didn’t know until now), got to learn about these through your comment.


No, at least not when it comes to the id, ego and superego:
In psychoanalytic theory, the id, ego, and superego are three distinct, interacting agents in the psychic apparatus, outlined in Sigmund Freud’s structural model of the psyche.
(Wikipedia)
One of his books in which he formulated the concept is The id and the ego.
Jung, in turn, is more about archetypes (“universal, inherited idea, pattern of thought, or image that is present in the collective unconscious of all human beings” as per Wikipedia’s definition), and he better integrates religion/spirituality (an integration with which, personally, I identify more than with the Freudian theory; sadly there seems to be no Jungian psychoanalyst around where I reside so I had to stick with a Freudian one).


I use a Misskey platform to interact with the Fediverse as a whole (and especially with Lemmy and the threadiverse), among other reasons, purposefully because I can’t cast downvotes onto others’ contents. Even the “👎” emoji reaction, if I wanted to use it, doesn’t count as a downvote from Lemmy’s perspective.
Yeah, some things I see make me want to downvote, but I prefer commenting and replying as to why I’m disagreeing with that content, instead of treating human beings and their content as numeric computer variables (and as a former programmer, I’m well aware of how communication among living beings can’t be replaced by zeros and ones).
The same applies in the other direction: I’m fond of people who disagree with me by actually stating what/why they disagree, instead of clicking a numeric button. If you ever disagreed with me and took the effort to try and tell me what you disagreed with and why, my sincere thanks for being a human being towards another human being!
After all, we’re gathering on a set of social platforms whose main feature is discussion board and, IMHO, numbers can’t possibly contribute to a discussion, especially open-ended discussions and artistic expression… if social interaction is to be replaced with numeric reactions, communication and content creation becomes pointless: why should I, as a content creator, spend the effort (sometimes I spend literal hours on the same reply/post/comment) composing something if the reaction will be numeric?


I heard from the psychoanalyst I’ve been consulting with, that it’s something expected from the human psychê (something about the unsolvable conflict between Id, Ego and Superego, as the psychoanalyst is aligned with the Freudian way of psychoanalysis).
And, then, we look at the Nature we came from and belong to, and… isn’t the double standards something inherent to the very predator-prey dynamics? An owl mercilessly hunts and eats a mouse, yet she evolved mechanisms to camouflage herself before the tree bark, so other species don’t cause her harm. She avoids being hunted, but she hunts.
Furher zooming out, this can also be observed throughout cosmos somehow. Poetically speaking, when a star collapses in her own gravitational field and develops a singularity, she tries to win the tug-of-war when faced by another singularity. She doesn’t want to be pulled and consumed by other matter, but she wants to pull and consume matter.
If we go transcendental, Yaodabaoh is trying to dictate and have a creation submissive to his whims, in this timeless effort not to compromise his Yang pole and submit himself to the Yin pole of Cosmic Mother Goddess (Sophia). Similarly, one (especially one aligned with Demiurge and his archons) could find “double standards” at the fact that She had split from him (Demiurge as Her syzygy) seeking to be independent from him, yet She (IMHO, reasonably) doesn’t want him to fulfill his independence through his cosmic creation (because this harms Her own independence).
The very fabric of existence and “non-existence” (the timeless transcendental aka “the pleroma”) reek of double standards, so it seems.
Yes, I definitely agree. My earlier “the only problem is, it’s two words” was my strict attempt to stick to the OP’s definition “its own word” (with “word” as singular) while also being biased towards closed compound words instead of open or hyphenated compound words. I’m aware a morpheme isn’t the same thing as a word, and a word can contain multiple morphemes, it’s just that… well, at least to my eyes and ears, as someone who quite enjoys stitching words together, a closed compound word describing something feels better than having an open or hyphenated compound word. I’m quite fond of neologisms, especially when they’re a single, running sequence of letters (as pneumoultramicroscopicosilicovulcaniconiosis is a single sequence, albeit gigantic and breakable).
Therefore, by “problem” I didn’t mean “grammatically problematic”. Grammatically, it’s okay and, in fact, expected. I guess the word “problem” was way too much for what I actually meant.
Yes, similar thing happens in Portuguese (my native language as a Brazilian): some examples include “quarta-feira” (Wednesday) and “trem de pouso” (landing gear).
The first part of the word instantly reminded me of the word “doppelganger” and, AFAIA, it has no hyphen.
While I was reading this part of your reply, the word “sadism” immediately popped up in my head as the closest English word to describe schadenfreude, except, in practice, yeah, both words are very different in meaning. (Also, sadism is literally coined after a proper name, Sade’s name)
“Saudade” (Portuguese for that feeling of missing someone, as in the feeling from “she misses her deceased grandma”) is also a word “missing” (pun intended) an English equivalent.
Not sure if this was intentional but I loved the reference (the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell). Lol
Trivia: if we get deeper into etymology and history of evolution of human languages, we could argue modern languages are almost entirely comprised of imported words. The word “importation”, itself, is a meta example:
in (Latin for “in, at, on; into”) + portō (Latin for “to carry, bear; convey”) + ātiō (from -tiō, Latin suffix added to verbs to form action nouns denoting a process, action, or result of an action)
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