Overwhelming sense of doom…im familiar but not inclined to enjoy lol

Yeah so…decaffeinated everything then.

It sounds like patience amd long term persistence is needed…which casts doubt on viability but if others can do it I suppose maybe I can too

Prescribed for depression before anyone including myself had any inclination towards ADHD diagnosis.

OK thats makes a lot of sense. I know im prone to ‘just winging it’ and thst works like 80% of the time but like the 20 or so I sometimes am literally or more figuratively up the crik without a paddle.

Im happy for you that it worked out. I feel I am happy with the outcome of the whole thing even it may have been brief compared to others.

I am worried and excited about medication. I often se e posts with people in similar situations stating they take 2-3 medications sometimes 1 multiple times a day plus the other 2. I am certain I will fail to do that slme point. I am also certain on more than 1 day I will be successful, should I accept this route. Question is how successful, or unsuccessful would I be? I suspect it will be very hard and or unlikely given my other habit issues (eating, brushing, sleeping, waking, etc etc)

Ill check it out

He did not diagnose autism which I dont think really disagree with.

I am diagnosed ADHD Inattentive Executive function difficulties Depression (Anxiety, CTS) (These were more notes than diagnoses.

I do believe the way he explained how mood (depression, anxiety) can impact functioning and life in general really made a lot of sense. I will say the methods were not as rigorous as others have mentioned, there was an intake (1 hour), some forms i filled out, some forms people who knew me filled out, (difficult to get those done) and then a presentation of diagnosis after ‘clinical impressions’.

He said the depression and anxiety is foundational snd more important to treat than the ADHD.

He did not confirm or observe-repetetive motions, difficulty with textures, lights, or sounds, or restrictive interests. These were the the cutoff and I scored at or below all Autism spectrum batteries / tests.

What led me to suspect Autism was simply my longstanding feeling of outsiderness. And a distinct lack of social network and feeling irritable and stressed after doing what other people do (eating dinner with several people, going to club, sitting around and talking about last sex things, etc etc )and people often remarking to me how I am different or unusual or eccentric or weird or smart (i am not smart truly, but apparently I know more about a lot of different things than others apparently but i wouldnt claim tha other people do)

So that is how it went. I already felt so confirmed thst I had ADHD tha it wasnt surprise.

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Unless I am locked tf in (‘hyperfocus’) lol

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Oh sick Thucydides huh? How about Thucydides nuts?

In school maybe but no. I did feel tired basically all day long.

It did seem that the lecturing and teaching put me to sleep quite often.

I do find without enough stimulation I am tired, unfocused, and unable to think sharply.

With too much stimulation I am overwhelmed and become exhausted shortly after an exposure duration-it makes me feel a bit like I’ve got blinders on or I am ultra focused / aroused / stressed for a brief time and then collapse and cant think until I get a moment ( several hours) away from everyone and zone out

Ha well better late than never I suppose.

Have you observed any improvements? You have had some treatment or currently undergoing some?

I think the 2 things I currently identify with the biggest are: Autism- ‘bottom up thinking’ (i think is what its called) Wherein I tend to converse and think from specific ‘this is a woman drinking a coca cola in swimwear on a hot day’ as opposed to ‘this is an advertisement for coca cola, they are using the heat and the attractiveness of the woman to make an appeal’ if shown an advert for coke.

ADHD- Not.being able to perform tasks unless there is an immediate consequence

Both (maybe) Stimulation must be present at the right amount. Too much (a night club) and I start using a lot of energy, im stressed, im less social, I think less clearly, and I fatigue entirely soon after. Often becoming quite irritable and oddly mad at everyone for not being interesting or cool or lacking depth or something illogical.

Hope its working out for you

Good to know that is classified as a disability.

Feels so ironic how they is so much more talk : news, tik tok, documentaries, etc, about missed and late diagnoses of this sort and yet here I am.

Who’d 'a 'thunk I would be in almost the exact situation so many people having been raising awareness about.for so long. Not I. Hehe. Kudos to those people as much as I have felt as though therr are some people who misrepresent conditions or overtrivialize, or something, seems I have been part of the problem maybe.

I know I likely will and or can benefit from medication but I am also unsure and wary.

I was prescribed some SSRI and felt relatively horrific side effects and choose to quit before 72 hours were up…amd SSRIs are supposedly meant to be noticed after months of taking them I believe.

Having nightmares about work. -maybe i dont habe so much nightmares but waking loops of memories of all.slrts of things I did that I wish I hadn’t. Worst was when there was woman (coworker) whom flirted with me in and out of work amd drove my reward systems insane so that it was like I was on drugs amd then having withdrawals–led me to do all sorts of regrettable things. I believe I was like a pet entertainment for her. I dont think her flirts were genuine but rather she enjoyed seeing me aroused/blushed maybe knowing there would never be any true reciprocity

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Yes I feel sometimes "wow Im eating healthy and Im exercising l, I even spoke to a stranger…I am making growth to being better. And then randomly life collapses around me again’

The YouTube is good. Not sure how I’ve gone so long without even considering ADHD/ADD.